Prayer to the Universe...

This prayer came to me just over a year ago when I had many questions about my purpose and life in general.

Great Universe, this One prays to you:

This One prays for guidance to walk my steps to my Higher Purpose that I may leave love in the shadows of light;

This One prays to know that which is part of my True Calling and that which is not;

This One prays to walk my path with beings of like vibration, seeking to uphold and increase the frequency of One for the benefit of the whole;

This One prays for guidance to the deep well of abundance you have set aside for me that I may share it along the way, watching it grow and spread further than the wings of the mighty Eagle;

This One prays for the lessons I need to learn to be presented along the way, always knowing that you will not give me anything I cannot overcome if my integrity remains pure;

This One prays that my steps bring only peace and harmony wherever they fall and step knowing that this is MY Path, knowing that anyone by side walks with the same Vision;

This One prays for clarity to guide me when I am deep in the womb of a challenge, that I may come through to apply that lesson in my Life;

This One prays to Mother Earth knowing that She holds the seat of my power, that She beyond all, is to be held in high reverence, for we come of She and we leave of Her too;

This One calls upon the High Earth Priestess within, and all those without, to support this human being that may stumble on the way, knowing that each time I will embody more of the Priestess and less of the fallible human being;

This One acknowledges my place on this Path and know that I am where I need to be in order to go where I need to go. I know I am supported.

May my actions be dedicated to benefit all sentient beings. May my presence create magic. May my Path to my higher purpose be taken every step I make.

May we all know PEACE.

One Love

Friday evening, 11.15pm, in the Mission

Oh to be awake again...

What a productive day. And quite effortless. I worked 10 hours (as opposed to my usual 5), got home at 7.30pm and a few hours later I am waiting to rinse the pink dye out of my hair, first bleach then wash then color then wash and condition. And of course I need to dry it before I go to bed. Whilst the dying process was taking place I managed to upload the entries below, copy three more CDs onto my iPod and catch up with some email. All I need to do now is check Tony's site www.ynottony.com and finish my hair. Tomorrow morning I can wake up with fresh hair and go to the gym, I am then free until I teach on Sunday morning - I am going to enjoy the sun in the park tomorrow afternoon....

What a blessed life.
Later
One Love
Shivie

July 20, 2005, in the Mission…

People generally like you even when they don’t understand you…
…a brief introduction to your blog mistress, Shivie

I particularly resonated with this line of an Indra astrology report I had done several years ago. A 40 or so page document I have continued to look at it at various stages of my Path and each time I glean a little more. It also said that “standing still and dying are the same to [me], a chance to catch up on [my] sleep.” Well, I have to say, I have been asleep for some time - even I was beginning to wonder when I would once again wake from my reverie, at times I even wondered the unmentionable “what if that was it?” I am, of course, referring to the feeling of tingling in the fingers itching to spill out onto a keyboard with no idea of what they are going to say.

Tonight, for the first time in a VERY long time I feel AWAKE to myself. Oh, I have been busy, I took up cycling in March of this year and was one of 1600 riders who rode from San Francisco to Los Angeles in seven days to raise $6.8 million for the AIDS Foundation (www.aidslifecycle.com) and the L.A Gay and Lesbian Center. But I have not been busy writing or painting or playing with my bead box (always in gratitude to Joseph for selflessly giving me his entire collection of beads). No, I have been numb. I have thought about writing in the sense of sitting in a semi coma thinking that I should be writing, “tomorrow” my self deprecating self would say. And tomorrow became tomorrow became tomorrow. Until…TODAY…

I have to say that I have felt a shift for a couple of weeks but was waiting for the action stage. And here it is, I am pretty certain. I have not sat at my desk since I moved in here in April. I have been busy riding. And then I was decompressing and processing. And now I am here in my clean room, incense has been burning all night, candles cast a dancing shadow on my wall, I put everything in it’s place and smudged with sage. I set up my computer, put on my talented friendz WiseProofAvatare (www.boredofeducation.com) and Queen Sheba (friend of a friend and a sister in the Revolution), along with 2Pac and Usher. I am happy.

I told someone today that I was feeling empowered, and I am. I feel that much of my life is flowing in tune, and the areas that are not are under strict scrutiny. Now is the time, the time is now.

A couple of days I gained clarity in a particular personal relationship…the odds did not fall in my favor and I have lost a dear friend. However, we had come to a “brake out or brake down” point and something needed to be clarified. This decision coincided with Saturn leaving Cancer, my sun sign (FYI Sag rising and Aquarius Moon) after a two year stint. Saturn is the taskmaster who makes you work hard in often adverse conditions. “Think back to July 2003” my horoscope said (Susan Miller does amazing free 4-6 page monthly reports on www.astrologyzone.com), and see how much has changed. As soon as I finish writing to you I am going read my journals for 2003 to now. So much has changed, I feel like a version of Microsoft, always updating the software and every now then a new version arrives…We are at a new version…watch out world, I am in finally coming into my power, I shall be meek no more...

I have waited for so long to have an outlet to write that may provide feedback. I know you’re there, let me know what you think…once you talk to me I will have even more to say (and if you want to interview me just send me a list of questions…I reserve the Fifth!), which be great if you enjoy reading my random thoughts, not so great if you don’t, but hey you don’t have to look if you don’t like!!! It has been a long slog and I have often questioned my faith in the Universe, but every time I have followed my “feeling” rather than rationale, I have been elevated to the next level toward a way of living that feels more right to me the further along I get. And I have always felt so wrong in my life, I guess it is like coming home in a spiritual rather than geographical nature. Though I am not home yet I am definitely walking in the right direction and after all life is journey and not a destination. Now I enjoy the journey, whereas before when I was a lawyer I just prayed I could get through without feeling totally disconnected. I give gratitude for each day I spend outside in the sun, riding my bike as transport, sitting in the park…just sitting. “I am not in the office” is my mantra and I give gratitude for each day. But this is another segment for another time…

“Write your profile”…has been the mantra of my dear friend and Iyengar Yoga Teacher, Tony Eason (www.ynottony.com). He is of course referring to this, the blog. I have looked at the profile and every section has word count limits - I find it (obviously) difficult to respond in a set number of words, plus I seem to go blank when I ask the fingers to tap rather than letting them tell me when. And what is a profile, it is just a superficial angle of information, whereas these words may convey more to you than a profile about who I am without my statistics and profile. (And yes Tony I will work on the “statistical” profile…I promise!!!).

Who am I? I am merely a reflection of you, as you are for me.

Come back soon…and don’t forget to write..
One Love
Shivie

On Prosperity...

“A prosperous person has certain characteristics. For that person, richness itself is not the basic aim. It happens anyway. A prosperous person does not gather wealth, but the wealth of wealths. No matter what the circumstances, a prosperous person creates, delivers, and fulfills. They act with constant equilibrium through all pressures and all shortcomings. That person will not barter the values of their character or identity for any temporary benefit. They always remember the presence and possibilities of the Infinite within each person. They cultivate endurance, dedication and awareness. To such a person, prosperity is as natural as the breath, as unlimited as the mind, and as immediate as this moment.”

Yogi Bhajan

Who's in your community...

Seems to me that a great deal of our problem as a society is the lack of a sense of community. It's hard enough to take care of ourselves without thinking about helping others, right? WRONG! A sense of aloneness seeps into a Soul that is not nourished...simple acts like handing out some food to someone who is hungry, exchanging a smile with a stranger in passing only to have it returned, giving away things you no longer need but someone else does, la de da, nourishes the Soul in a way material acquisitions, even food, cannot. We are all here, on one planet with a one way ticket...don't let them fool you that you are all alone and have to employ their shark tactics. Community starts with unity, when we find unity we find strength in the community we create. AND PLEASE - DARE TO DREAM...






AND I DREAM THAT LANCE ARMSTRONG AND OPRAH WINFREY HAVE SUCH A GREAT TIME ON THE AIDS LIFECYCLE 5 RIDE NEXT YEAR THAT THEY SIGN UP FOR THE FOLLOWING YEAR...yep, Tony and I have decided that they are coming and even though they don't know it yet, they will, fingers tap keyboards in the Mission every day looking for more ways to complete the Mission in the Mission mission (wow so many missions!!!).

I have to run now, but will continue to work on getting this blog up and running...
One love
Shivie

Site under development - check back soon for information on Life, kundalini yoga, bodywork, cycling for the AIDS Foundation www.aidslifecycle.com (click on experience the event and then Blog for my blog from the road and beyond), EXCITING NEWS to come on the Mission in the Mission - Shivie and Tony www.ynottony.com join together to get Oprah Winfrey and Lance Armstrong involved in AIDS LifeCycle 5...as Tony says "crazy is just the other side of genius"...through our crazy ideas we will reach ones of genius levels...